driving lesson in 5 hours, my eyes are all puffy and gross but at least this has made me tired. its a shame when something with so much potential gets thrown in the bin..

i’m so sick of feeling like this, like im just giving so much and still getting a big smack in the face. im exhausted and miserable and i dont even remember the last time i was really happy. and im just so fucking sick of going to sleep crying, knowing that your sound asleep with a smile on your face.

i really want someone to love me who needs me as much as i need them, who cries when we argue and wont leave it till im smiling again. who cant sleep or eat unless we’re okay. i just really want to be someones 1st priority for once, and im really really tired of being told i am, when im just not.

they need to stop telling me i am what im not. 

I hate hangovers, I really don’t expect to be going town again anytime soon.

I just feel like crying all day.

i spent £40 on tonight altogether, just to come home feeling like shit. no point in me getting drunk anymore, i need a boyfriend again. too bad im so picky

felt depressed all night and now i have that weird dizzy confused feeling in my head again, aghh do not come back i swear!

it’s been exactly a month, but it feels like so much longer.

full on hating life, i hate this house, its stupid, my mums boyfriend could drop dead and i wouldnt be phased, i’d probably smile. cannot wait to move back to rosso and ditch him, gonna be the best thing that ever happened to me!

1. Get hair done cos its shit!
2. Go to town!
3. Get Grace’s birthday presents!
4. Purchase alcohol for Grace’s birthday!
5. Buy fake eye lashes cos you werent born with any!
6. APPLY MORE FAKE TAN COS YOUR ALMOST DEAD.

will be a productive day.

Can’t say I’d of rather been by myself for the past 4 days, but going to sleep alone tonight will suck a lot.

Anonymous asked: Do you like anything about yourself?!!

i actually like a few things about myself, no girl really ever likes herself 100%. I love my legs, they’re really skinny and nicely shaped, they look beaut with a tan! I love my eyes cos they’re really big and my iris looks really cool. i like my bum cos its perrrky and looks gooood with my new risky shorts. SOSHUTUPPP

Anonymous asked: Name five things you would change about yourself physically if you could?

oh wow.. umm:

1. My stomach, I’d make it as flat as an ironing board.

2. The back of my hips, my hip bones are so wide they stick out and are wider than my bum so it looks dodgey I HATE them!

3. My skin colour, I’d be naturally tanned and have dark freckles instead of light gingery looking ones! Oh and my face skin would be 230923 times better as well!

4. SMALLER boobs, mine are fucking hooooge! I hate them, I want a decent C cup instead, that’d be just lovely.

5. My lips, defs make em more plump and differently shaped :)

seriously I could think of more how bad is that! 

my bed covers smell like you, it makes me miss you more

Love of mine,
Won’t you lay by my side,
And rest your weary eyes,
Before we’re out of time,
Give me one last kiss,
For soon, such distance,
Will stretch between our lips,
Now the day’s losing light.

Oh.

Bring me your love, tonight.

never read these lyrics before, but i’m really relating to them right now. <3

i think i’ve just realised how fucking bad i really am. cant carry on like this, its fucking hopeless

don’t know how much more i can take until i fucking snap, i really can’t do this anymore